A New Start...

DD111210 Saturday Re-post

Today, Zac fetch Fay n me to Berjaya Times Square, upon my request, ahhahha, because i am gonna buy some new clothes (most of it are office wear), don't misunderstood that i am gonna spend a lot for express my bad mood or what, i am not that kinda girl, just my office gonna shifting to new premises, everything is in new, i wish i could have a new look, new impression for everyone, a new start for myself as well!

2p.m, starting our journey from Bandar Sri Damansara to Times Square take us for 1.5 hrs, OMG~~~ Zac, i really don't know why you will take so many wrong roads and those roads are so damn jammed?! hehheheehe, maybe it's not your fault too, because we don't go to K.L. shopping center for couple of years, except One Utama.

By the time we reach there, it's already around 3.30pm, Fay is starving, she haven't take her brunch, ahhahhaha... We decided to go to a Restaurant called ViVo (American Pizza & Panini), this name let me think of ViVoCity in Singapore, is it related? We have order lotssssssss : 4pcs chicken wings, 3 mushroom soups, 1 set of discovery seafood( fries, fried scallop, fillet, salad, onion rings and calamari, 1 seafood pasta, a 13'' pizza, 2 fruit juices, 1 sky juice.

We take around 1 hour to almost finish all.. This is suffocating... People die for starving, instead we almost die for full... We tell each other that no more pizza or pasta after this, ahhahhahaa.... so funny....

Then, we buy movie tickets : THE LAST THREE DAYS. Luckily Zac has own a GSC credit card, no need to queue in a long long queue cuz has a priority lane for him, how GREAT! After buy the 7pm movie tickets, they start to accompany me for shopping. Mmmm.... I just take 2 hours for shopping in 3 shops... very fast right? I managed to buy 11 clothes... hehehheehe... let me share with you, but please ignore the background and shooting skill :P Average price: RM28 / pcs, cheap right? Can't wait to wear these to office, hehehhe.....

After movie, we have an OLD TOWN session at Jln Kuching. It's already 11.30p.m. He send us back after the session... Tired.....ZzzZzZzzZzz.....

寂寞又来找我

刚才读了报纸里的一篇新闻，22岁的少男因被女朋友提出分手，在facebook网上留言，倒数自杀时间，然后就真的跳楼死了。他跟她才拍拖四个月，就爱的要生要死，结果真的看不开就做傻事去了。换作是我，你的四个月算什么？如果我学你的话，我早就不知死到哪里去了，很可悲。。。

今晚爸爸妈妈都去关丹了，我要独自睡觉了，眼看着他们离门而去，心里有点酸酸的，好像三岁小女孩，看见爸妈出门又不带自己出去的感觉，泪从心里倒流。。。站在露台望着爸妈带着行李兴高采烈的步上Grace的房车，心里百般不舍，come on，就只是两天一夜不见面，我竟然有股冲动快要哭了出来。。。

突然间，二哥开门的钥匙声把我从那快要崩溃的心情给救了一把。。。他今晚是来吃晚饭的，可是这次就比较匆忙，因为他的宝贝女儿生病了，还在医疗所等后，所以他吃完晚饭得赶回去了。二哥刚才看见了我站在露台那孤单又可怜的背影，只问我为何没找朋友出去，他还约我去喝杯酒，但我都拒绝他了。接着，我也忙着把饭菜端来端去，弄得自己很忙就对了。。。他的一片好心，我真的心领了，不过我想我还是不需要用酒精来麻醉自己的地步。

二哥又走了，又剩下我一个人在家，电脑又走的慢，看pps又停下停下，唯有坐在沙发上开电视机看看节目。不一会儿，大哥们回来了，家里顿时热闹起来。他跟我说今天他去找他，他跟他说了一番话。。。我静静的听他说直至说完为止。。。我觉得很对不起我大哥，把他一路来的好意与期望，到最后统统都给毁灭了，还留下未解决的难题给他，是逼不得已地丢给他来收拾残局，我很歉疚，我不能够完成你的心愿，也不能够完成我自己的心愿，对不起你，对不起自己！

最近，我会很想念拥抱，可是我知道从今以后再也没有谁可以给我拥抱了，要把九年来一直培养的习惯：拥抱，亲吻，问候语，天气报告，健康状况等等等等，统统都要一一删除，再也没有人能够给我以上所说的，也许是暂时性，也许是永久性，没人能知？！我只有逼着自己改掉习惯性的习惯，我知道时间就是良药，我一直提醒自己，只是我很难做到。。。

我爱故我在

Yesterday, Tienzy and Tammy were waiting me in front of my office after my office hour. Just because they promised me that day that they will lend me some books, they still remember the promise, they delivered it... Lot of books, but i think i will like it...

Today, i start to read my first book, 我爱故我在,written by 陶晶莹,quite a lot of philosophies about LOVE, i have read 50pages for today, that is really good, cuz i don't read books so far...

The first page inside the book: Love debate... Quite interesting to read her point of view on LOVE, learning...

This is so called TIMING OF LOVE, i really like the above said by the writer, it is so true! I guess will finish the books within 5hours non stop, but of cuz i don't have 5 hours non stop free time, maybe just read a lil bit when i have my lunch time in office and when before i go to bed...

To Be Continue Sharing...

Yours ＬＯＶＥ I do Read and Receive!

DD041210 Saturday Repost

Today, i went out with Jun,Jon n Zac for lunch...wondering they know my story?! They don't mentioned any in front of me, maybe they scared to mentioned it, i guess... Jun open a lot of clips from her HTC phone and JOn's I-phone, showing me lots funny clips from GAG姐: 是但lism... Hahahaha... really 搞笑：是但啦，算数啦，吾烦你啦！

Then they fetched me to Kepong Village Mall MBO catch a movie: Lelio POPO, mmm... so so lar the movie, most memorable in this movie is a song called: Getaran Jiwa. Never know Malaysia has such a good song de...

At night, Fay, Zac and me go to Sunway Giza Mall. We have a drink there while we are waiting other ppl on the way coming, mmm... I really don't remember which pub already, but i remember i have ordered KilKenny, personally I don't really like the taste, still prefer Hoegaarden instead...

When Jun, Jon, Kenny reached, we all go to Teo Heng KTV Studio. No doubt this studio is offering a cheap price, but the chairs...hmmm....not that satisfied or comfortable... That night my feeling kinda strange, like no mood to sing, what a strange phenomena, I am a singing Princess leh....

Suddenly, we have a special guests, Fooi and Foi Yen, so glad to see them show face, they are just act as loyalty audience, sit there quietly and listen... Fooi is a bit noisy by the way... I have try my best to sing, some of the songs do touch my heart till i almost gonna sob while i am singing...

After the K session, it's almost 2am something. Everyone are leaving with their couple, Jon fetch me back. Suddenly I feel very loneliness, like I am alone and being abandoned in this world, what an extremely bad feeling... I feel very tired, when i reached home i sleep till the next morning...

她來聽我的演唱會

今晚送上自己一首歌，歌词里的女主角很像我。。。它虽是说一个女人从失恋十七岁到结婚四十岁，一路走过的路，很多很多的回忆，很有意思。。。我很喜欢这首歌！

她来听我的演唱会  在十七岁的初恋第一次约会  男孩为了她彻夜排队  半年的积蓄买了门票一对  我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎  三年的感情一封信就要收回  她记得月台汽笛声声在催  播我的歌陪着人们流泪  嘿陪人们流泪  她来听我的演唱会  在二十五岁恋爱是风光明媚  男朋友背着她送人玫瑰  她不听电话夜夜听歌不睡  我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎  成年人分手后都像无所谓  和朋友一起买醉卡拉ok  唱我的歌陪着画面流泪  嘿陪着流眼泪  我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎  在三十三岁真爱那么珍贵  年轻的女孩求她让一让位  让男人决定跟谁远走高飞  嘿谁在远走高飞  我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎  她努力不让自己看来很累  岁月在听我们唱无怨无悔  在掌声里唱到自己流泪  嘿唱到自己流泪  她来听我的演唱会  在四十岁后听歌的女人很美  小孩在问她为什么流泪  身边的男人早已渐渐入睡  她静静听着我们的演唱会  

Before i go to sleep...

What are you doing there? Will you ever feel hurt when we broke up? Or you are now enjoying with other people outside there? Do u think i can't stand up anymore? Do you think i am going to let me down anymore? Do you think i am crying for you every night? TOns of Questions in my mind... You click 'like' my status? You do really like it? Why you still want to appeared in my vision? Pls, leave me alone, I've done what your wish, are you happy now? Will you now not feeling guilty? Is that all these you want? I've promised myself, I will love myself more, I have love from my friends and family too, lotssss.............. You pls Don't Worry, from now on, you are no longer have the responsibility to worry about me...

A LONG RELATIONSHIP HAS COME TO AN END

I can't believe that it's true. I can't believe that it is happen on me. I can't believe... I can't.... I thought i gave u all i have and i should get back what i want, but no, not as simple as i think... I am just a very simply person, happy go lucky, no longer for me from now on....

It's been broke up for a week time, i thought i can stop thinking about you, but it's hard, it's really really hard... my heart kinda pain... pain until can't take a breath...

I've stop crying for quite a number of days, i am glad that i can do it... I thought i am tough enough, but when the weekend comes, when the holiday comes, my tough disappeared... How long do i still need to go thru this stage? How long do i still need to erase all my memories with you?