Perhaps Last Chapter

Tonight is the night to say goodbye to you, guess we would never meet again, never will in touch anymore. Just like the picture shown, I am sad I am hurt I am angry I am mad I am more disappointed on you. I will take your advice anyway, I'll move on. Suddenly, thinking of Olivia Ong's song 'I'll Move On'...

'It's Complicated' is my only status

Why tonight you choose to come? I thot I could give up everything if u choose not to come, why you still come at last wor! I was tasted so bitter today, and you should have know it. My heart was like broken, kinda pain, you wouldn't know, cuz I didn't tell any. I decided to stop it, as I start second guessing, this is the worst part and the worst thing which it shouldn't be happened on me. Everyone can tell me that you are not a good man except myself. But today I am start wondering that you are a good man instead?! Can't see it, can't see any, nobody can tell me a truth, just begins my imagination, I don't mean it, I lose control. Thought if tonight the weather is like yesterday night, you said you won't be find me, I wish rain comes immediately, and I am planning that I won't be with you anymore after tonight, let the God decides for me. But why? Why tonight's weather damn good?! Why you still want to come find me even though you know I am kinda pissed off. No doubt the main purpose to come out tonight is to share with you with other thing, but I really have no mood to come out and talk about it too. But you said you are on the way and gave me options to select place for drink, and what happened to me? I have chose the lousy one! Why don't I choose a better place which I wish for so long. During conversation, you did ask me whether have any more question, and what happened to me again? I keep silent! Why I don't ask what I wish to know so far, all those question marks which appeared in my mind previously where its go? Why I don't take this opportunity to ask?! Why I still keep silent in front of you? When u left, a thousand of why keep asking myself, why am I so stupid. What's wrong with me? Why tonight not raining? Why tonight you come for me? If all these happened tonight, I would have choose to forget you starting from tomorrow. Is it meaning to say that you are my Mr Right and not to give up easily?! Or God is playing with me?!

Hope The Fear In Me Subsides

Dear DC, a song which I would like to dedicate to only you...


You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

当水瓶座女人遇上水瓶座男人时

已经有一个多月了，你从没中断过给我的信息与电邮，不停的给予我鼓励，意见，看法，祝福，帮助，让我觉得多了一个人关心我，保护着我，谢谢你成为我的聆听者，诉苦者！

见了几次面以后，发现原来我们还蛮相似的，有共同的兴趣。对选择朋友，我很严格，你却是非常地严格。对旅行，你竟然完全百分之百说出了与我一样的看法。对我身边曾经或即将发生的事情，你也开口说中了。对我所想过与顾虑的问题，你也一一地说出口来，不谋而合。


这次真的遇到对手了，一个认识不久，却又好像认识好久的人，无说不谈，很了解对方似的，就好像摸透了对方的内心世界，知道对方在想什么需要什么，一个非常好学又有见识的人，从今晚开始，我给你加分！^^


水瓶座男人让我想起一首歌：

我气馁了你的信到了，原先抑郁轻松不少，
每次我想说笑你早已笑了，默契相通不可干扰，
为我解寂寥一切纷扰，一经你劝勉算了，
未说的问题咀角一牵已知晓，
我跌痛了你也心碎了，其中辛酸彷佛抵消，
我要冲线了你心跳快了，步履彷佛都轻飘飘，
愉快的心照怎算轻佻，想起你我会暗笑，
受你的照料别人怎讲亦不紧要。。。

一点儿感动

连续两天，两个男人前后都在我最无助，最需要求救的时候给了我最大的帮忙，我真的有一点感动。。。

前者，他很含蓄，不太会表达，也目无太多表情，连续一个上午，找了他四轮，走了八次的路程，为的是我的一件重要的公事，他没发脾气，只是问我，可否有别的办法解决，我望着他，心想以为他不想帮我，但他急忙解释说看我这样走来走去不是办法，因为要穿着高跟鞋，连续走过二十多间店的距离找他，并不简单，心里有点开心。最后，还是完成这重要任务，很感谢他。

后者，他很智慧型，在我遇到公事上最不知到要怎么做的时候，就在晚上发了一个电邮给他，隔天一大早，他已经找出了方案与例子给我，其实那个方案与例子他根本没用得着，也根本没可能会有的，他说我很好运，就那么巧他收藏了起来，这真的对我很大帮助，我有点感动。

有时候也觉得上天好像在跟我开玩笑似的。。。

灿烂的笑容于你

送你这张照片，希望你会被我那灿烂的笑容而感到有少许的感动。尽管你不太爱吃汤圆，我也不太爱吃，但，我希望你会试试吃一些，毕竟是妈妈煮的，她知道你吃的话，一定会很开心的，信我吧！

祝：元宵节快乐！

最复杂的心情

本来今晚我很开心，但又发生一些事情，让我看见，我很生气。

开心+生气=伤心

我就快要哭出来了，到底想怎样？我好辛苦。

事实是我所看到的吗？我不想这么去想的，但我控制不到，我接受不到，请你告诉我好吗？你要我怎样？T.T