'It's Complicated' is my only status

Why tonight you choose to come? I thot I could give up everything if u choose not to come, why you still come at last wor! I was tasted so bitter today, and you should have know it. My heart was like broken, kinda pain, you wouldn't know, cuz I didn't tell any. I decided to stop it, as I start second guessing, this is the worst part and the worst thing which it shouldn't be happened on me. Everyone can tell me that you are not a good man except myself. But today I am start wondering that you are a good man instead?! Can't see it, can't see any, nobody can tell me a truth, just begins my imagination, I don't mean it, I lose control. Thought if tonight the weather is like yesterday night, you said you won't be find me, I wish rain comes immediately, and I am planning that I won't be with you anymore after tonight, let the God decides for me. But why? Why tonight's weather damn good?! Why you still want to come find me even though you know I am kinda pissed off. No doubt the main purpose to come out tonight is to share with you with other thing, but I really have no mood to come out and talk about it too. But you said you are on the way and gave me options to select place for drink, and what happened to me? I have chose the lousy one! Why don't I choose a better place which I wish for so long. During conversation, you did ask me whether have any more question, and what happened to me again? I keep silent! Why I don't ask what I wish to know so far, all those question marks which appeared in my mind previously where its go? Why I don't take this opportunity to ask?! Why I still keep silent in front of you? When u left, a thousand of why keep asking myself, why am I so stupid. What's wrong with me? Why tonight not raining? Why tonight you come for me? If all these happened tonight, I would have choose to forget you starting from tomorrow. Is it meaning to say that you are my Mr Right and not to give up easily?! Or God is playing with me?!