Happy Birthday To Myself : Carmen Lee

Today 4th FEB 2011, is my birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!! First year celebration with single status is a bit weird, a bit mm zap guan, wondering how was I celebrate my birthday when I was in 16 years old!? Can't remember at all lol... But I am really lucky u know?! Because I have a gang of best friends, a gang... They celebrated with me when we had our cny gathering on 1st FEB 2011, i was so surprise, I thought that I will only have their wishes on 4th FEB, or might be not, because my birthday always make people easily to forget, cuz it is always fall on cny or near to cny which everybody is in busy mode. 

I was surprise that they make the small celebration which I was very satisfied...2pcs ice-cream cakes, it's good enough! And also come with a bday gift, which I chose for myself but I do not know at all at first... Thanks for 'cheating' me, cuz I am really like the gift that I chose for myself...

The watch actually I have planned to buy by my own one day and exactly the same brand same pattern, cuz I have did survey several weeks before at my place... And now I finally get what I want, I am so happy! Happy to have such an expensive gift, happy that you all celebrate with me, happy that you all still stay beside me!!! Love u all!!!

That night really drink a lot! This was the first time I drunk, drunk until I non-stop laughing, sit on the floor in the mall and laughing there, crazily laughing and sadly crying in the car. When the happy emotion goes into my mind, I laugh out loud, when the sad emotion goes into my mind, and i cry it out, laugh cry laugh then cry, totally out of my control, emotion control my feeling my expression... This is called drunk,now I know it! Worst thing was that night I vomit deadly. I started to cry while I vomit, but this times I cry for suffering of vomit, at that moment, I just wish that I could stop vomiting, no more vomit, please... it's gonna kills me...

I was drunk but I still awake, just I cant remember the details... But I know the gals team really tAke very good care of me, 'perfectly' is the only word that I can described them. Thanks for those who helped to clean up the shit things. Thanks for those who helped to carry me to the wash room, to the sofa and to the bed. Thanks for those who helped to took out my necklace, earing and watches. Thanks for lending me a bed to rest. I promised myself, this is the first time I get drunk and will be the last time I drunk, never will be happen again, never and ever! I don't wanna suffering anymore, I love myself so I must know to take care of myself too! 
P/S : Liquor can lend a person happiness and release out without his concern, the feeling is really high, but after released, the suffering mode will automatically ON, all the temporary happiness and feeling of high, everything will then still vomit out and return it back to the world because all these are unreal. Stay happy and stay real in the world, love ourself before we love somebody else. 
Love You