<单身男女＞

刚刚看完了＜单身男女＞，很不错的一部爱情单剧，杜琪峰执导的爱情作品，我本身非常喜欢，尤记得＜孤男寡女＞,＜瘦身男女＞，很巧合的， 每一部戏都离不开男女这两个字，办公室恋情这点子还真的棒，太令我遐想了。＜单身男女＞是讲述一个女人与两个男人的三角关系，这女人爱的男人是个浪漫，有点大男人主意，却又不太专一与专心的人，而另一个爱她的男人，是个细心，聆听者，冷静，非常专情，却又有点缺乏浪漫与刺激的人。戏中提到“十個男人九個滾，剩翻一個仲捻緊，女主角要的是第十一个”。滚的男人叫作“地球人”，不滚的男人就叫作“火星人”，也被称为“第十一个男人或十一郎”，难到这世界上真的没有十一郎吗？！换做我是那女主角，我会像她一样，选择了吴彦祖，选择了一个专一，冷静，聆听，踏实可靠，细心和爱我多过我爱他的男人，也不去选一个我非常爱的男人，虽然有悔意，却伤得我最深，又曾经犯错也花心的人。在我心里，我依然相信十一郎的存在，就算这机会是多么的渺茫，我还是相信的，谢谢这部电影，让我有感而发，让我怀有这一个信念！

Last Day House Keeping Before CNY 2011

This month consider a very busy month, Ooops, I totally forgot that today is already 1st March, still thought in FEB... Almost a month i never update my blog, a lot of things wanna share with you all, let's start bit by bit from FEB...

In FEB, I did my house keeping for CNY coming and I found out that I have kept many letters and cards in my wardrobe, letter thickness is around 5cm ( not in the photo) ... Wonder why it kepts in my wardrobe? Just because it is a nice place to hide it (many secrecy in those letters and no one read before except me and the writer ). About the cards, some of it were bday cards, some were season wishing cards and some were valentines cards ( SAD to read the contents )...

This is the most special and meaningful card ever that I have received , recycle concept and hand made by one of my Malay colleague when I was 21 yr old birthday, it hangs each of my colleague wishing sentence including my Ex-boss, A Big Key for me...

Then, I found out my 纪念册 when I made it in standard 6, omg, I have a lot friends during that time, but some of them I can't recall at all... too bad me! My childhood dream was getting rich, wuahahhah, how cute and reality I was... And my dream occupation was become an Astronaut, because I like stars and astronomy, until now I am still a very STARS & CLOUDS person, sometimes I can actually staring on the sky and start to imagine the looks of clouds, changing and changing, full of imagination... Imagine how good if now I am lying on a borderless fresh green grass in a cloudy day, close my eyes, clear up my complicated mindset, start a deep breath, open eyes and start imagine the shape of clouds to become a furry sheep, a smiling bear or maybe a flying bird...

Happy Birthday To Myself : Carmen Lee

Today 4th FEB 2011, is my birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!! First year celebration with single status is a bit weird, a bit mm zap guan, wondering how was I celebrate my birthday when I was in 16 years old!? Can't remember at all lol... But I am really lucky u know?! Because I have a gang of best friends, a gang... They celebrated with me when we had our cny gathering on 1st FEB 2011, i was so surprise, I thought that I will only have their wishes on 4th FEB, or might be not, because my birthday always make people easily to forget, cuz it is always fall on cny or near to cny which everybody is in busy mode. 

I was surprise that they make the small celebration which I was very satisfied...2pcs ice-cream cakes, it's good enough! And also come with a bday gift, which I chose for myself but I do not know at all at first... Thanks for 'cheating' me, cuz I am really like the gift that I chose for myself...

The watch actually I have planned to buy by my own one day and exactly the same brand same pattern, cuz I have did survey several weeks before at my place... And now I finally get what I want, I am so happy! Happy to have such an expensive gift, happy that you all celebrate with me, happy that you all still stay beside me!!! Love u all!!!

That night really drink a lot! This was the first time I drunk, drunk until I non-stop laughing, sit on the floor in the mall and laughing there, crazily laughing and sadly crying in the car. When the happy emotion goes into my mind, I laugh out loud, when the sad emotion goes into my mind, and i cry it out, laugh cry laugh then cry, totally out of my control, emotion control my feeling my expression... This is called drunk,now I know it! Worst thing was that night I vomit deadly. I started to cry while I vomit, but this times I cry for suffering of vomit, at that moment, I just wish that I could stop vomiting, no more vomit, please... it's gonna kills me...

I was drunk but I still awake, just I cant remember the details... But I know the gals team really tAke very good care of me, 'perfectly' is the only word that I can described them. Thanks for those who helped to clean up the shit things. Thanks for those who helped to carry me to the wash room, to the sofa and to the bed. Thanks for those who helped to took out my necklace, earing and watches. Thanks for lending me a bed to rest. I promised myself, this is the first time I get drunk and will be the last time I drunk, never will be happen again, never and ever! I don't wanna suffering anymore, I love myself so I must know to take care of myself too! 
P/S : Liquor can lend a person happiness and release out without his concern, the feeling is really high, but after released, the suffering mode will automatically ON, all the temporary happiness and feeling of high, everything will then still vomit out and return it back to the world because all these are unreal. Stay happy and stay real in the world, love ourself before we love somebody else. 
Love You

A Very First Bday Gift By Myself

Last Sunday, I have bought an Iphone 4 as my birthday gift, hahhaa, quite an expensive gift after all... but I feel so happy...

Do you see how GREAT and MIRACLE it was happenned to me?

I've been searching it at so many places, stores... Most of the sales staff telling the same answer 'no stock', 'wait next week',' don't know when got stock'... Really tired of the same answer given...If you never got it in the early morning of Sunday, I am pretty sure I wouldn't ask you to accompany me, drive along the road just to search for it. If you choose to bought the accessories in the first Mac Studio, we wouldn't have chance to go in to the second Mac Studio. Instead, the first Mac Studio has variety choices of accessories but you said you do not know how to choose it, so you choose to left. Until we reached the second Mac Studio, thing's happened! Everything is just like Destiny, nothing that we can control, nothing that we can expect, if you deserve it, you will have it in anyway, if you aren't, you will lose it in one day even if you get it today!

Happy Reading!!!

Heart Lock

最近发现，当我坐在另一个人的隔壁，我都会很自然地把手交插胸前，而不是放在腿上。很多次了，昨天才发现自己有这样子的小动作。不知道是不是在自己的潜意识里，有了一道很厚很大的防卫墙，而这个手势正好就是保护自己的动作，潜意识保护自己不再让别人侵入。我发觉我的心被上锁了，被上了一把好多密码的心锁，无人能打开，还是那人还没出现？！还是这道锁只有我的潜意识有钥匙？！现在的心情真的很放空，放空的心情真的很轻松。。。

A Small Prim-School Mate Gathering

Yesterday, 08/01/2011 Saturday night, we had a small gathering among 5 of us at Deutsches Gasthaus 5 at Menjalara Kepong. Many people do not know how to pronouns Deustches, the correct pronouns should be 'Door ches'. A German, he is my customer, and he is friendly, I've learned the pronunciation from him during the final world cup 2010, lol~~~

Although it was only 5 ppl attended this event, but i think this good enough, cuz sometimes too many people attend an event very hard to get to know each other very well... And this times, we chat among 5 of us, I can say there was non-stop of chatting, wide topic, that was really interesting...

From 830pm till almost 1am, 4hrs plus sit and chat over there, sharing opinions, telling true story, planning incoming activities... At last I feel my eyes tired, start yawning... This session ended with happily... Thanks to Wai Chuin, willing to fetch me go and back... Hope we will have more activities coming soon~~~ Take care everybody!

我怀念的。。。

最近一直重复着这一首歌，奈何这首歌的歌词会那么的像我呢？是不是早年前为我而作的呢？还是这样的遭遇实在是太多人遇过了，而我只是其中一个。。。

还记得那女孩传简讯给你，与你的亲密合照，当我问你，你只带过没有说一句解释。我恨自己不相信你，觉得是我的问题。你跟我说，你不再快乐，我并不知道，我只对你苦笑，让你觉得我都懂了。。。

我好怀念，我曾经对你的无话不说，我曾经告诉过你我的梦想，我想去的地方，我们的将来，等等等等，现在呢？就算冷战以后，隔天早上，我们还是会当没事发生，还在一起。我还记得我们的一切一切，当初是谁开始先忘记呢？

那天，你还紧紧地抱着我，我紧张地说不出一句话。你真的爱得太自由了，你走的太远了，把我一个人留在后面，承诺过我的一切，都忘了，忘了给过我的承诺，忘了我给你的温柔。

所以，我选择放手，选择让座，在你面前假洒脱，没有哭，其实是多么的不舍得。。。

因为这首歌而让我感触很多，从前都不知道，不晓得也没留意它的意思，现在，都懂了。。。